~ *:･ﾟ✧ Xiaoven | 魈溫 ✧･ﾟ:*~
you could say that xiaoven hit me pretty hard, since they were pretty much the reason i started playing genshin at all haha. i wasn't sure whether i should make them their own page category w/subpages, or just one page, but the friend who lured me in here told me they Will need subpages bc of all the scribbles for them i have around, so here we are!
as of rn, i still have to go digging around for the full collection, but the scribbles in question:
otp dissertations
"dissertation" used loosely here, but basically a summary of why i like xvx so much.
the sun, the moon, and the truth
a long-overdue argument for xiaoven moon/moon dynamic, rather than the traditional sun/moon interpretation.
"Only three things cannot be hidden for long: the sun, the moon, and the truth."
~China Dolls, by Lisa See
shame, devotion, and venxiao
this is a partial transcription of a diary entry that ends up meandering into thoughts abt xiaoven vs. venxiao, as dynamics.
xv n religious themes
this a partial transcription of a diary entry that is basically the primer on my Deeply Christian Upbringing™ n how that relates to all my xiaovenning
asexual explorations
in a sense, a companion/precursor to what queer sins stain thy soul .
unpacking queer & gendered repression w/xiaoven
personal struggles of (with?) queerness.
additional notes for chapter four
found when archiving the wip lighthouse, which is kind of my Ultimate Xiaoven OTP Fic™ of all time. a mishmash of thoughts on duty, sin, and recompense for xiao.
hypothetical yaoi zine essay
consolidating my thoughts on the yaoi that pretty obviously changed my life.
on "NO SWITCH"
an essay on why i feel "no switch" is a disservice to characterization that might want to feel like more than just a m/m smut trope archetype.
on balancing blame and forgiveness
an essay left in the comments of a fic i liked, wherein i talk, a little philosophically, about what it means to be worth saving, worth forgiving, when you are not a perfect person.
#boyyuri: the yuri nature of xiaoven & yearning
a massive chunk of xv meta cut from my submission to the yurizine.